Journal of John B. Patrick, March 23, 1861-June 9, 1861

Journal of John B. Patrick, March 23, 1861-June 9, 1861

John B. Patrick was a member of The Citadel's Class of 1855. He served as a professor of mathematics at the Arsenal Academy in Columbia from 1859-1865 and as secretary for the Board of Visitors from 1862-1865. During the Civil War, he was lieutenant in charge of the Battalion of State Cadets. His journals span from 1861-1865 and detail his personal life and health, religion, his work at the Arsenal Academy, cadet discipline, and Civil War activities.

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A Journal by John B. Patrick Commencing March 23d 1861.

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Journal.

March 23d 1861.

The joys and sorrows, hopes and fears of my 29th year have passed away. I could wish it were not so, not that I am sensible of having committed any great error during the year that is gone, that I could correct by living over the time again, but because it would allow me one year more to spend in endeavoring to be useful to my fellow men. But time once past cannot be recalled, and hence it is the part of wisdom simply to heed the lessons which our experience may have taught us, and thus be enabled to work the more efficiently during the days that remain to us. Hoping that God will sanctify to me the experiences of the past, and that His Providence will direct, and His Grace sustain me in the path of duty and usefulness, I enter my thirtieth year.

The day has been spent chiefly in administering to the comfort of the dear partner of my toils, who is now sick. - Wrote a letter to my friend T.H. Muse, Esq. in which is expressed the hope that he and I will be spared until the return of another of my birth-days and

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that we may be the honored instruments of accomplishing much good. Received a letter from Bro. Charles, in which he expresses the hope that I enter my thirtieth year in good health and spirits, and that I will continue so during the year. - A Liberty pole was raised in the city to day.

Sunday 24th March.

A beautiful day. Read to the Cadets, at prayers, the 1st Chap. of Genesis, and a part of the last chapter and commented on the book. Went to Sunday School, as usual - am encouraged at the attendance and interest manifested in the good work. Attended church heard a good sermon on the text there remaineth therefore a rest to the people of God. Heb. IV:9. Am Officer in Charge and therefore do not go to Church in the evening. Wife’s health is better.

Monday 25th March.

Attended to my accustomed duties. - Finished my course of lessons in the Bayonet and Broad Sword exercises. Judge Lonstreet, Pres. S.C. College, left Columbia to day. It is said he intends resigning his position in the College.

Tuesday 26th March.

Performed my duties as usual. Saw the flag of the Confederate States, as it was unfurled by the breeze, from at the top of the Liberty pole. It is a beautiful flag. - Was made to feel sad, at the feeling evinced by a young man, as he bade me good-bye.

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I feel assured there is something good in his disposition and aims. Endeavored to console and encourage him. Hope he will make a useful man.

Wednesday 27th March.

Nothing unusual transpired. Had a long and agreeable conversation with J. Y. G., my Bro.-in-law, who paid us a visit on his way home from Charleston, where he has been buying “Spring-goods.” He is not favorably impressed with Charleston as a place for purchasing goods. The Merchants are too independent.

Thursday 28th March.

Performed my regular duties.

Friday 29th March.

To day being Good-Friday, the Academic duties were suspended. Availed myself of the opportunity to answer the following question, at prayers this morning. The question was propounded by one of the Cadets a few days ago. Were God - the Father, Son, and Holy Ghost, always the same being? i.e. Did all three persons exist from all eternity? I answered in the affirmative. Read various passages of Scripture, sustaining my position. Call in company with Rev. Mr. Breaker, to see Mr. D., a Baptist brother, who has recently moved to Columbia. Mr. and Mrs. Breaker called on us this afternoon.

Saturday March 30th Visited my young friend O. I. J. Esq. - Had an interesting conversation with him. Received a letter from Father, am happy to learn that he is in good spirits, notwithstanding he is not altogether well. Received a letter from my young friend and former pupil B. B. N.-. It is full of Christian sentiment, and is in every way a gratifying letter for

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a teacher to receive from one who was once his pupil.

Sunday March 31st

Commented to the Cadets, this morning on the exclamation of our Saviour on the Cross. “My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me.” Hope that the young man who asked my opinion of the passage, and all the rest of them, may seriously consider it for themselves. Attended the pleasant and profitable exercises of the Sunday school. Went thence to Church. - Heard a sermon from by Bro. Allen on the 25th verse IV chap. Romans. “Who was delivered for our offenses, and was raised again for our justification. A great sermon it was. - I think I never heard the ordinances so clearly and forcibly expounded. “The Lord’s day: it is for the world. Baptism: it is between the church and the world. The Lord’s Supper: it is for the church.”

Met with the Sunday school in the afternoon to hear the children practice singing. - Heard Bro. Allen again in the evening on Romans III chap. 2nd verse. “Much every way: chiefly because unto them were committed the oracles of God.” The advantages afforded us by the Bible was his theme - the sermon was a good one, but I did not think it equal to that of the morning. Bro. Allen is the Cor. Sec. of the Bible Board of the S. Baptist Convention.

Monday April 1st

Am feeling sad this evening. The uncertainty of all things earthly, the depravity of the human

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heart, and an anxious solicitude for the welfare of those near and dear to me press upon my mind. Endeavor to adopt the language of the Psalmist and “say of the Lord, He is my refuge, and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust.

Tuesday April 2nd

Nothing unusual. Am more cheerful this evening.

Wednesday April 3d

Received a letter from my friend T. H. M. It is characteristic of its author - eccentric yet manly. Wrote a letter to Father. Attended prayer meeting. Would that more interest were manifested in its delightful exercises.

Thurs-day April 4th

Rumors are afloat in regard to an attempt to reinforce Fort Sumter. Trust that peace will still be preserved.

Friday April 5th

Took tea with Cap’t White. Myself and wife spent a pleasant evening.

Saturday April 6th

Am not feeling well this evening. It may perhaps be the result of exposure, as the weather is unfavorable and I have been out in it. It was determined to day, that I shall take charge of the English department until Prof. R. is able to resume his duties, or until other arrangements are made.

Sunday April 7th

Did not go to Sunday School, because of rain. Went to church, few persons out - heard a discourse on the 1st Psalm. No service at night. - Read one of Spurgeon’s sermons. Am feeling cheerful though I have a slight cold.

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Monday April 8th

Am suffering somewhat from the effects of cold. Have been exposed a great deal to day to the inclement weather. Am pleased with the manner in which the class recited in English to day. - Unwelcome news from Charleston, to all lovers of peace. Volunteers are ordered to Charleston. We fire a signal of nine guns at the Arsenal, to let the volunteers who live in the country know that their services are needed. I still cling to the hope that no blood will be shed.

Tuesday April 9th

Truly “Man is born unto trouble, as the sparks fly upward.” Lights and shadows, joys and sorrows make up our life. But for the hope of eternal joys beyond the grave, through the merits of a crucified Saviour, man’s pilgrimage would indeed be a cheerless one. The very love we entertain for our friends oft times gives us pain. They are prostrated on beds of sickness, or it may be that they are called away by the stern necessities of life, and we bid them goodbye with tearful eyes, not knowing when or where we shall meet again. And here arises the thoughts of the scenes I witnessed to day - two companies of infantry, at a few hours warning, left our city and its vicinity for the seat of war. Wives and children, parents and friends, masters and servants bade goodbye, and the cars moved off, laden with soldiers, amid loud huzzas and waving of hats, together with the cheering sounds of martial music. Brave men! may their stay be short

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and pleasant, and their return as happy to all as their departure was melancholy to some.

Wednesday April 10th

Yesterday’s record would be equally true of to day - save that only one company and a detachment of another left here to day. Received a letter from brother Charles, informing me that he is to leave soon for Charleston. The company to which he belongs has been called for. A brother-in-law and several cousins are in the regiment. Wrote Bro. Charles a letter - Commend him to Jesus, and request the letter to be shown to Bro. in law K. and cousin J.

Thurs-day April 11th

A large number of volunteers passed down the Charlotte R.R. to day en route for Charleston. I did not see them, but heard their loud hazzas as they went through. May the blessings of Providence attend them. It is reported that Gen. B. has demanded the surrender of Fort Sumter. Wrote a letter to Father and family. Am feeling more cheerful this evening, notwithstanding I have a slight cold.

Friday April 12th

More volunteers went down from here to day. Dispatches say that the Batteries opened fire on Fort Sumter this morning at 4 ½ o’clock, and that the fire was kept up and returned until night. We know not what a day may bring forth. May God spare the lives of the men and decide the contest soon in accordance with the truths of the Gospel!

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Saturday 13th April.

All honor and Glory to God for the news that has reached us this day! Fort Sumter has been taken. No one hurt on our side! There are two reports of loss in Fort Sumter - one is, that Capt. Doubleday and ten of the garrison are killed, - the other is that Capt. Doubleday and a large number of the garrison were killed. - A small number considering that the cannonading lasted about 33 hours. There is a regiment of near 1100 men encamped on the Fair Ground now waiting further orders. Col. Jenkins in command.

The bells were tolled in honor of the victory. Cannon were fired (seven guns) in honor of the first victory against the northern fanaticism. - I have stated only a few of the reports and events of this day - because these seem to be correct. Of the rumors, conjectures, hopes and fears and excitement in general that have prevailed this community to day, I need record nothing. Language, written or spoken, would fall to convey any definite idea to one who was not an eye witness. - I forgot to state above that Anderson and his garrison are prisoners of war in Charleston.

Sunday April 14

Went to Sunday School. Four of our teachers are away - they are on the tented field. Their classes are present and are heard by brethren who have come in Providentially, perhaps. Feel sad as I look around and see the little ones whose Father’s have gone from home to engage in the contest and uncertainties of war. May God spare them and bring them back safe to their families!

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Heard a good sermon from Bro. Breaker on the 46th verse of the 27th chap. of Math. He divided the subject into three general heads. 1st In what sense our Saviour was deserted forsaken by the Father. 2nd Why he was forsaken. 3d The lessons derived from it. - The ordinance of Baptism was administered to two candidates - one white and one colored. In the afternoon the ordinance of the Lord’s supper was administered. It was a solemn occasion, and the remarks by Dr I. L. Reynolds and Bro. Broker most appropriate. Those of our church and congregation who are in the army were alluded to most pathetically. - The reports of yesterday are contradicted by the reports of to day. None were killed or wounded on either side in the battle of Fort Sumter!!! Nothing but the interposition of Providence could have saved them all. May the lesson be heeded by all, on both sides. - Saw Cousin W. F. Patrick - a volunteer in the service of his country. He has left the quiet scenes of college life for the turmoil and dangers of war. Entreat him to shun the vices of the camp, and emulate the example of his Father who was a volunteer soldier in the Florida war. Bade him a goodbye! May God bless him!!

Monday April 15th

Heard my recitations as usual. Our messenger reports that our services are not required in the field. All good men hope that the hand of God as manifested in the remarkable termination of the recent battle will cause men to pause and reflect before going further into war. - President Lincoln’s proclam-

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ation is commented on, and ridiculed. It is felt that seventy-five thousand men can never harm conquer us, or molest us greatly. - Soldiers arrived on the cars - a considerable number rendezvous here and await orders. All are in fine spirits. Capt. Hoke’s company, from Greenville, contains a great many of my acquaintances, and friends. Among them are Luther & John Goodlett, brothers of my wife. I feel for them in particular, for not being accustomed to a rough or exposed life, they will be sure to find a soldier’s life disagreeable. They come up and take tea with us.

Col. Jenkins’ regiment left this morning for Charleston. Col. Williams’ regiment is stationed at present on the Fair Ground.

Tuesday April 16th

Lincoln’s call for volunteers has a tendency to strengthen the cause of the South. Volunteers from North Carolina & Kentucky hold themselves in readiness to aid the Confederate States. - Detachments of the 3d & 4th regiments S.C Volunteers arrive on the cars. They are indeed a stalwart looking set of men. Many of them are from the mountainous portions of the state, and should they meet the foe they will be sure to give a good account of themselves. Two Bros-in-law take tea with us.

Wednesday April 17th

Indications of stormy times ahead still exist, yet I feel a hope that reason will resume its sway over the human mind, and that we shall have peace and prosperity again. The Northern administration must soon see the utter folly of attempting the system of coercion.

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Thursday April 18th

Great rejoicing in the city over the secession of Virginia. Col. Thos. Preston of Virginia delivered an address to the citizens of Columbia having been requested to do so by them. He was escorted by the Butler Guards of Greenville.

Friday April 19th

A dispatch says that a “blood fight” occurred to day in Baltimore. A portion of the New York regiment attempted to pass through on their way to Washington. This is the effect of the system of coercion.

Saturday April 20th

Accompanied my wife to Greenville. There was a large number of persons on board the cars - all appeared lively. I was involuntarily led to contrast our feeling as a people with that I have always conceived would or must pervade communities involved in war. All acknowledge the interposition of Providence in the remarkable termination of the bombardment of Fort Sumter. Greenville is still improving.

Sunday, April 21st

Heard the venerable Dr. Johnson preach. His subject was prayer. The sight of the old divine is in itself a good sermon. He has lived beyond the allotted period of man’s existence, and his gray hairs, his feeble appearance and his subdued yet clear intonation, all combine to make him an interesting speaker. His allusions to our present troubles was a happy one.

Monday April 22nd

Came home. Saw on the cars as I came from Greenville, several volunteers. All seem determined to do or die.

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Capt. Pool who had been detained at home by sickness was met at the depot here by his company and greeted by loud huzzas. Prof. T. S. C. Lowe the distinguished aeronaut came down with us, having taken the Greenville train at Alston. He left Cincinnati on Saturday morning a 4 o’clock, intending to go to Petersburg Virginia, but a south wind thwarted his purposes, and in nine hours after he started, he came down at Pea Ridge, Union Dist, S.C., having traveled twelve hundred miles during that short time. He is a fine looking man - six feet high, more or less, large gray eyes. When I was looking at him, I could but think of the description I had read of Walker, the great Filibuster who was called “the gray eyed man of destiny.” But I have a better opinion of him than I ever entertained of Walker. - Wrote a letter to Bro. Charles who is now stationed on Morris Island - Col. Hagood’s regiment.

Tuesday, April 23d

Affairs of a public nature are assuming an excited and troubled appearance in Maryland and Virginia. Troops are going from our state to Virginia. Wrote a letter to Lou, (my wife.)

Wednesday April 24th

In addition to my ordinary duties, I wrote a long letter to my parents. - Attended prayer-meeting, pleasant it is, indeed, to meet at the social prayer-meeting. Would that they were more generally attended. There is still talk of war in Maryland.

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The New York seventh regiment is said to have been “literally cut to pieces”, by the Baltimore Military.

Thurs-day April 25th

Considerable activity among the military now stationed here. - An effort was made to raise volunteers for the Confederate States - I know not exactly with what success. Received a letter from wife and answered it. J. Y. Goodlett, my Bro.-in-law, took tea with me.

One of the cadets, T-. having failed to receive a letter containing his tuition fee, asked me to lend him an amount sufficient to make the payment. I feel a pleasure at having been able to assist him.

Friday April 26th

Drilled a company of volunteers - found them desirous to learn. Heard with sorrow that Mr. A - our faithful drummer, was in a “dying condition. - Called to see him - found him fast passing away - offered my services to the distressed family. Called again after retreat, - found him dead. Mournful scene - a widow and orphans, left without their earthly support, but we rejoiced to know that they “sorrow not as those without hope.” May the God of the Fatherless and the widow be their God! Sat up with the corpse during part of the night.

Another circumstance not in the ordinary routine of duty will be noticed of a more pleasing character. I took the corps out in the town and drilled it for the benefit of the 4th regiment S. C. Volunteers. They took it as a compliment, and one of their number, thanked us

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in a very appropriate yet short address. In behalf of the Cadets I responded to the speech which was so unexpected by us.

Saturday April 27th

Drilled another company of volunteers, found them better trained than the company I drilled yesterday. Had Rev. T. D. Gwin, Chaplain to the 4th regiment S. C. Volunteers to dine with me,- am glad to learn that quite a number of the volunteers, even of those who are not professors of religion, make it a habit to read a chapter before retiring at night.

Attended the funeral of our drummer, and a solemn one it was too. Although not entitled according to “The Army Regulations,” to a burial with military honors, he was in accordance with his own request thus honored. And to his credit be it said, his fidelity in the discharge of his duty during a long period of years, justified, in my eyes at least, this departure from military rules. - There is a large lesson in the sound of the funeral drum, the slow march, and the position of reverse arms, which it seems to me, cannot be readily forgotten. May it be heeded by those who were in attendance this afternoon! - Received a letter from Bro. Charles and answered it. He is still on Morris Island. Heard from wife - she is well as usual.

Sunday April 28th

Lectured to the Cadets - at prayers, this morning. Endeavored to

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impress the lesson contained in the military funeral of yesterday. Attended Sunday-school as usual. Heard an excellent sermon, by Dr. Reynolds on the text, “Come thou with us, and we will do thee good.” Exodus tenth chap. 29th verse. - Wrote a letter to the partner of my life, in which I gave her an idea of the sermon just referred to. It was a sermon to the soldiers of the 4th Regiment. It was full of the spirit of patriotism and drew tears from many an eye, as he referred to the dear ones that were left behind. The Dr. has confidence in the soldier who shed tears on parting with his family, and so have I. - Met with the Sunday-school children this afternoon to hear them sing. - Attended church this evening. - Heard a sermon full of interesting and all-important truth, by Rev. T. D. Gwin. His subject was the origin, progress, reign and ultimate triumph of the Redeemer’s Kingdom.

Monday April 29th

Am weary and somewhat lonely. - Feel that “it is not good for man to live alone.” Made the acquaintance of Col. Sloan of the 4th regiment S.C. Volunteers. He is a pleasant man in his appearance.

Tuesday April 30th

In addition to my ordinary duties, I drilled a company of volunteers about an hour to day. - The detachment of the Richland Rifles, that did not go on to Virginia, returned from Charleston this afternoon whither they went on the 3d of Jan. last. Their faces are bronzed, their step is firm and regular, and as they

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march under the proud Palmetto flag the observer is made to feel that they are freemen. Their is an independence their bearing which none can fail to see. May the day soon arrive when all the companies now under arms shall return to their homes!

The Saluda Guards, Capt. W. M. Gibbes, and a detachment of the Governor’s Guards left to day for Virginia. - Received a letter from Lou and answered it this afternoon.

Wednesday May 1st 1861.

Besides my usual duties, I drilled the Officers of the 4th Regiment S.C.V. to day. I am happy that it is in my power to do something in this way, to aid in the great cause in which we are now engaged. - Sorry to learn that there are a a few cases of sickness among the Volunteers, likely to prove fatal. Attended prayer meeting this evening.

Thurs-day May 2nd

Received a letter from Lou, and wrote one to her. Feel anxious for the time to arrive for us to see each other again. It is pleasant, in the absence of those we love to think of them, and know that they think of us.

Friday, May 3d

Received two letters, one from home, the other from Bro. Charles. He asks my advice, being at a loss to know how to act, where there seems to be such a wide difference of opinion. I reply immediately, telling him to obey the orders of his officers - that they will not be apt to

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give an illegal order. At home all are well for which I feel thankful. They are anxious for the time for my contemplated visit to arrive, and so am I.

Saturday, May 4th

Gen. Garlington’s Brigade* paraded through our streets to day, and made, taking it altogether quite an imposing appearance. It is not usual to see as many as two thousand men, at one time, and when they appear under arms, marching to the sound of martial music, they make an impression that will not soon be forgotten. The Quitman Rifles, Capt. J. D. Nance were on the right of the 3d regiment, and the Butler Guards, Capt. A. D. Hoke, were on the right of the 4th regiment. - As I looked at the long column of brave men, beheld the colors of the various companies (for the greater number have colors although not according to military usage in service), and listened to the impressive airs to which they marched I could but regret that all the officers are not thorough tacticians. Brave men deserve to be led by officers, who are not only brave, but who are also familiar with the art and science of war. - Impressed with this truth, I have been for several days, drilling the officers of the 4th regiment, those of the Butler Guards & the Palmetto Riflemen excepted. This I do with no hope of reward, other than that arising from a consciousness of having done something to promote the interests of my

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* I should say a part of Gen. Garlington’s brigade, and a part of Gen. McGowan’s commanded by the [Governor].

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country. This is all I hope - for all I desire. - Attend the regular conference meeting of our church this evening. The attendance was small. Nothing of importance was done.

I am feeling lonely this evening, and the knowledge that the partner of my cares is not well gives a turn to my feelings loneliness, that might well be called a lonely sadness. - But I am reminded, that, we are in the hands of One who cannot err, and thus endeavor to rest contented.

Sunday May 5th

Attended Sunday-school as usual - went thence to church - heard a good sermon from Bro. Breaker on the text “For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain”. Phil 1st:4. Attended the quarterly meeting of the S. School Soc. - addressed the children on the importance of the Sunday school - told them that the “Sunday School Army” was a destined to accomplish great good, in the warfare against sin. Bro-in-law J. Y. Goodlett paid me a goodbye call this afternoon, and remained long enough to write home. He leaves to-morrow for Virginia. May it please an All-wise Providence, to grant him and all the rest to the company, the “Butler Guards,” a safe return!

Monday May 6th

Another day has gone, and long will events of that have transpired in it be remembered. The Butler Guards left here to day for Virginia. In it I have connections, friends and pupils. I cannot there-

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fore, but feel a deep interest in their welfare. I bade them all goodbye, shaking each one by the hand. May God grant me the pleasure of seeing them return, and permit me again to tender them friendship’s warmest grasp. - They left in fine spirits, many of them bearing away large and beautiful bouquets that had been presented to them by the fair daughters of Columbia.

I am feeling somewhat indisposed this evening. I contracted a slight cold yesterday, and hence the cause of my indisposition. To increase my unpleasant feelings is added the intelligence that Lou has been quite sick. But I would not murmur. We are in the hands of Him who cannot err.

Tuesday May 7th

Am more cheerful this evening. Heard indirectly from Lou, that her health is better, for which I am thankful. Wrote a letter to Father and to Sister to day, also a note to wife - Sent the latter by Bro-in-law J. R. P. Goodlett who took tea with me this evening.

Wednesday May 8th

Did not attend prayer-meeting this evening, because my duties as Officer in Charge required me to remain at home. The bells were rung and cannon fired to day at 12 o’clock, in honor of the secession of Arkansas and Tennessee.

Thursday May 9th

Am feeling anxious about Lou. A letter from her mother informs me that she has been quite sick, but is better

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now. My duties will not permit me to leave here except in case of an emergency, and hence I can but remain, hoping that she will continue to improve in health. “I know in whom I have believed.”

Friday May 10th

Am feeling somewhat weary this evening. In addition to my usual labors, I have drilled the Volunteers two hours to day. This I have done voluntarily, hoping thus to enable them to render the more efficient service in the day of battle. It is, indeed, a privilege thus to aid my native state in so just a cause.

Wrote a letter to Lou, telling her of the uncertainty about my spending the vacation away from Columbia. Hope to be permitted to spend it in Greenville with her, but must act as duty dictates.

Saturday May 11th

Wrote two letters one to my old friend T. H. M. & the other to my friend and former pupil B. B. N. The remainder of the day has been spent in the performance of duties incident to the day. And now the night has come to close the day and the week, and would that I could say that I retire with a cheerful heart. I do not murmur. I know that afflictions must needs come upon us here, and that if we bear them properly they do but tend to remove the dross and imperfections of human nature, and thus

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prepare us for that blessed abode where afflictions never go. I am thankful for the information derived from Father-in-law’s letter, that Lou is better than she has been. He hopes she will soon be out of danger. Would that my duties permitted me to leave, I would go up on Monday.

Lieut. H. D. Kennedy returned this afternoon. His health seems to be about the same as when he left from all I can learn.

Sunday May 12.

Read the 20th Chap. of Exodus to the cadets at prayers this morning - made some remarks on the book of Ex. - Attended the S. school and church as usual. Bro. Breaker preached from Ecclesiastes IX chap. & 10th verse. He divided his subject into two general heads: the rule of life as enjoined by the text, was first considered. Secondly the reasons for the rule were enforced.

This evening, I heard a sermon from Bro. Watters, one of the volunteers from Anderson Dist. Romans 12 chap. 1st verse contains his text: “Which is your reasonable service”. All the duties that God requires of us, said he, are reasonable. It was a good sermon. When such men feel themselves called upon to take up arms in defence of their country, the cause cannot be otherwise than just.

Contrary to my custom on Sunday, I called to see my colleague Kennedy to day. Find him looking thin,

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but nevertheless think he looks better than when he left.

Monday May 13.

Discharged my duties as usual, but have not felt well to day. Received a letter from Bro.-in-law, J. R. P. G. - saying that the Dr. thinks Lou better. For this information I feel thankful, and hope under Providence that the Dr’s. opinion will soon be made manifest. Wrote a letter to Joel, sending a message to Lou. Called to see Kennedy again to day find him about the same as he was yesterday.

Tuesday May 14.

Received a letter from Father-in-law, and one from Sister Lizzie. Lou is no better, and sister’s letter is not calculated to make one feel cheerful. She seems to feel greatly for Bro. Charley. Poor fellow! he doubtless has a hard time of it in camps. May God shield and protect him! My great anxiety now is about the dear partner of my life. I would not murmur; my afflictions though great, might be more so but for the goodness of God. With a prayer that I will hear more cheerful news to-morrow, I will endeavor to seek repose. - Wrote a letter to Father-in-law in which there is a message to Lou.

Wednesday May 15. My prayer of yesterday has been answered. A letter from Father-in-law says that “Lou is apparently much better” for which I trust I am thankful to the Source of all good. Besides my ordinary duties, I wrote three long letters, one to Father’s family, but principally to Mittie,

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one to Bro. Charley on Morris Island, and one to Lou. That to Charley, was in answer to one from his received to day. It seems that there is considerable sickness in the regiment. About three hundred cases were reported on one morning a few days ago. They are compelled to throw up Sand Batteries on Sunday, just as on any other day. I wrote him that when wearied with toil “he must console himself with the thought that he is fighting in defense of virtue, humanity and Scripture truth, together with the white man’s inalienable right - the right to be free.” Enclosed a piece of “Advice to Volunteers” clipped from a paper, and also sent a little donation to aid him in procuring things that he may need. He did not intimate a want of money, and will I know feel loth to receive it, from one who has no more to give than I. I gave it, because I felt a desire to aid the brave, self sacrificing spirits who have taken up arms in defence of our country. Attended prayer meeting this evening and a delightful on it was to me, notwithstanding our number was small.

Thurs-day May 16

Happy to learn to day that Lou’s health is better. Am indulging the hope that she will soon be well. Wrote her a letter to day. - And now I proceed to make a record of a melancholy scene that it was my fortune to witness this afternoon - A man drummed out of the service of his country! How sad to think of it! Poor man! I presume drunkenness and ignorance were at the foundation of

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his misdemeanor. I trust I may never again be called to witness a similar scene.

Friday May 17th

Went through with the ordinary routine of duties. They were more interesting because of the fact that we shall hear no more recitations prior to the semi-annual examination which begins on Monday 20th instant. Dr. H- a Lieut. in the 4th regiment S.C Volunteers took tea with me this evening.

Saturday May 18

Went home to day. How pleasant to visit the paternal roof after an absence of nearly five months. The greetings of Father & Mother, sisters and brothers and friends produce feelings that cannot be well described. He alone, who is blessed by a kind Providence, with the privilege of receiving such friendly manifestations of regard is prepared to appreciate them.

Sunday May 19.

Spent the day at home. Know not when I will enjoy this pleasure again. Left home about 71/2 o’clock P.M. for Columbia. Regret to be compelled to encroach thus upon the Sabbath, but cannot do otherwise. True, I might have deferred going on a visit to my parents for the present, and in that case I do not know how long it would have been before I could have seen them. Got quite sick on the cars about 3 o’clock on Monday morning. Arrived in Columbia about 51/2 A.M., feeling better than I did

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in the night. Monday the 20th May I am in bed nearly all day under the treatment of the doctor.

Tuesday May 21st

The Bilious attack has passed off. I am feeling better and attend the examination in the departments of Mathematics and French. The boys acquit themselves creditably. To-morrow I am to examine them in English. Received a letter from Lou - the first she has been able to write me for two weeks. Am thankful for the evidence it gives me of her returning health.

Wednesday May 22nd

My examination is over, and I feel highly gratified that at the result. It was my first in the department of English, and I felt particularly desirous that the class should pass a good examination. My expectations were more than realized. And now the Cadets are all in fine spirits, particularly those who are going home on furlough to-morrow. Hope they will enjoy their vacation, and that they will remember the words of the Preacher as recorded in the XII chap. Ecclesiastes, which was read to them this morning.

Thursday, May 23d

Am now in Greenville, after a long ride which was rather more agreeable than usual, because of the fact that I met several old friends on the cars. Made the acquaintance of Gen. Hodges, a very pleasant old gentleman. Was surprised on arriving here to find Main Street almost entirely blockaded with

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carriages, but am informed that they have assembled to witness the drill of the Brooks Troop, Capt. Lamman, and their inspection by Col. Hampton preparatory to receiving them into his Legion for the Service of the Confederate States.- He has received them to their great gratification.

Am happy to find Lou’s health greatly improved. Would that it were possible for me to spend the whole vacation in this delightful mountain village.

Friday May 24th

Spent the day very quietly. Saw the Brooks Troop parading - a fine company it is in truth. Capt. Lamman called on me, and we had a loud and interesting conversation in chich our school-boy days were incidentally referred to. We spoke mostly on military matters.

Saturday May 25th

Saw the Brooks Troop parading again to day. Heard the address before the Andrew Fuller Soc. by Mr. M. of North Carolina. The Hope of Success was his theme, and was very well treated.

Sunday May 26th

Another Sabbath day is gone, and to me it has been one of mingled pleasure and sorrow. My visit to the Sunday School and the sermons to which I have listened were pleasant, profitable, and yet there is a feeling of sadness about me. It arises from the fact that the partner of my cares is not well - not able to enjoy any such privileges. The sermons

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were delivered by Revs. Drs. Crawford and Williams. The former of whom delivered the Commencement sermon before the students of the Southern Theological Seminary, the latter delivered the missionary sermon before the Missionary Soc. of the Sem. The first of these was a plain, honest sermon well calculated to do good, even though the ideas advanced were not new. The second was, indeed, an able sermon from Phil. 3d chap. 8th verse. “Yea, doubtless, and I count all things but loss for the excellency of the knowledge of Christ Jesus.” The subject was divided into three general heads. 1st The excellency of the source of knowledge; 2nd The practical results of that knowledge, and 3d The final rewards - the happiness, joys &c. attending the knowledge of Christ Jesus.

Monday May 27th

Attended the commencement of the Southern Baptist Theological Seminary. Heard an able address by the Rev. Dr. Winkler of Charleston, after which Mr. Chambliss of Ala. Graduate of the Seminary delivered a well written, and, indeed, an excellent address on Luther & Loyola. The remarks of Rev. Dr. Boyce, Chairman of the Faculty were very appropriate.

The cars arrive late - Volunteers in large numbers have come on furlough previous to entering the Confederate service. The poor fellows are very hungry and call for supper at the Hotel.

I am feeling very sad at the idea of returning to Columbia to-morrow. Lou’s health is so delicate that I am loth to leave her, notwithstanding, I know that

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she will receive every attention. But duty seems to call me to Columbia and I must go.

Tuesday May 28

I am now at home, if indeed a man may be said to have any home, when situated like myself. Left Greenville with a heavy heart this morning, slept a considerable part of the time I was on the cars, and spent most of the remainder in conversation with Dr. Winkler. Parted with Bro F. at the depot. He is on his way to his home in Montgomery Ala. How uncertain whether we shall ever meet again! Wrote a letter to my Dear Wife telling her of my safe arrival - Rec’d a letter from Bro.-in-law J. Y. G. who is now in Va., and replied at once.

Am here all alone - those near and dear to me are at a distance. How much it would gratify me to be with them! I could perhaps, by my presence and company, serve to beguile the tedious hours that are now spent in personal affliction, and anxious care about dear absent ones, who are on the battle-field. 

Wednesday, May 29.

The day is past, and I have just returned from prayer-meeting. Delightful privilege, - to meet with Christian brethren for the purpose of communing with our Father in Heaven, of unburdening our souls to Him in prayer. It is there we enjoy a foretaste of the joys that await the humble believer beyond the grave.

Wrote a letter to my parents, and one to Lou. Wrote, also, a note to Rev. G.W. Brooks, telling him how to apply for the admittance of his son into the S.C. Military Academy.

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Thurs-day May 30.

Am more cheerful this evening. A letter from Lou informs me, that she is better than when I left Greenville a day or two ago, and for this I trust I am thankful to a kind Providence. - Drilled the Cadets two hours to day, in the Bayonet exercise. - Wrote a letter to Bro. Charles, but am fearful that he will not receive it soon, as I do not know whether he is on furlough or not.

Friday, May 31.

Wrote a letter to Lou to day. It will go to her on to-morrow, and is the first letter on which I have paid Confederate postage. U.S. postage ceased to be received to day. Am glad that we are prepared to take charge of our own mails, and hope the day is not far distant when we shall be recognized as an independent and free people. - We have received no late dispatches from the seat of war, the Telegraphic communication being cut off, it is said, for prudential reasons. After reading the letters of a correspondent, “L. W. S.” of the Charleston Mercury, I feel rather apprehensive in regard to the safety of our brave Carolinians. With the light I have, I do not think their movements have been judicious. But there are doubtless, many circumstances of which I am ignorant, which if known might induce me to think differently. Trusting that a kind Providence will smile upon our efforts, to establish our independence, I will now seek that repose which sleep brings to the wary and care-worn.

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Saturday, June 1.

Another day and another week has gone, bringing us this much nearer the end of life’s journey. This was one of the days, set apart by the S. Baptist Convention for Fasting, Humiliation and Prayer, and many, doubtless, have been the fervent supplications that have ascended to Heaven this day, in behalf of our Country, the Confederate States. May God in mercy, hear and answer them. - Received two letters, one from home, saying that all are well at present - though Mother has had fever, and that Bro. Charles spent a few days there on furlough; the other was from Lou and brings me the pleasing intelligence that she is in better health than when I saw her.

Sunday, June 2.

Went to Sabbath-School, and Church as usual on the Lord’s day. Bro. Breaker, preached from 1st Samuel, 2nd Chap. and 30th verse, “For them that honor me I will honor, and they that despise me shall be lightly esteemed.” He showed 1st what it is to honor the Lord, and 2nd, what it is to be honored by Him.” It was a plain, practical sermon, one that every body could understand, and which they should heed. - In the afternoon, wrote a letter to Lou, containing the above account of the sermon, and of stating the manner in which I tried to observe yesterday and to day - the days set apart by the S. Baptist Convention for Fasting, &c, in behalf of our beloved country. I did not fast absolutely, but did as nearly so as I could not to attract attention The.

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the recommendation of the Convention was not adopted by our church at this place, because it was thought that its observance would to some degree impair the observance of the day appointed by Pres. Davis, the two coming so near to-gether. Heard Bro. Gwin this evening on the importance of religion. - I am feeling an anxious solicitude about our cause, and our brave Volunteers, and at the same time there is a feeling of confidence that all is well with those who are dearest to me, and that we will ultimately triumph. Trust in God that it may be so.

Monday June 3.

Received two letters, one from Lou, the other from Bro. Charles. Both are well, or rather they are in ordinary health. Charley has not yet volunteered in the Confederate Service, but would have done so, but for the requests of Father & Mother, who are both growing old and infirm. - Met Capt. G. L. Strait, an old acquaintance, answered two or three questions relative to “Dress Parade” for him. He is a warm hearted man. I hope to see him again, when the war is over, and all is peace. One of our Cadets, who has been found deficient, came to bid me “Goodbye” this evening. Poor unfortunate young man! I wish him well.

Tuesday, June 4.

Am feeling somewhat fatigued this evening. Have just left returned from Bro. Breaker’s where I spent and hour, or more, very pleasantly with him and three other Baptist brethren. It is refreshing to one’s

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spirits to turn aside occasionally from the quietness of solitude and converse with congenial spirits. Unfortunately, the persons with whom I have most intercourse are not the most congenial to my disposition. Walked about a good deal to day.

Wednesday, June 5.

Visited the 1st Reg’t. S. C. Volunteers, Col. Hagood, to day at or rather near Orangeburg, C. H. In addition to seeing brother Charles, and others of the Volunteers that are there I had the pleasure of meeting Father and several friends from Barnwell, who like myself had been or were there on a visit. I was pleased to find the soldiers looking healthy and cheerful. We are indeed, influenced a great deal by association and habit. Many who have never been accustomed to anything like hardship or rough living, are there, and apparently as well contented as if they had never known more comfortable circumstances. The Col. from what I can learn is an indulgent commander, - too much so perhaps. I fear he is not as good a disciplinarian as he ought to be, notwithstanding I am told that “he is a good officer.” - Cols. Bacon’s and Jenkins’ Reg’ts. (near 2000 men) left for Va. to day. A Reg’t. of Zouaves from Pensacola (recently but organized in New Orleans) also passed on to the “old Dominion.” They are the most reckless looking set of men that I ever saw. Their tanned faces, (from exposure at Pensacola) their peculiar dress and independent bearing, all conspire to fix one’s attention. From a conversation that I had with one of them, I am quite sure they desire

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to take a part in the fight, whenever and wherever it may take place. Besides these, it was my pleasure to see two companies of Georgia Volunteers on their way for the seat of war. I saw one of these last named present a bouquet to a young lady of S. Carolina. Said he, “will you accept this from a member of the 1st Reg’t. of Georgia Volunteers.” His appearance was that of a gentleman, a thing by no means uncommon to behold in our army. - Attended prayer meeting this evening.

Thursday, June 6.

To me the most striking event of to-day was the arrival of the “Brooks Troop” mentioned in my notes of the 23d, 24th & 25 ultimo. He that desires to see good men, mounted on fine horses, could not inspect a better company. Many of my friends, and acquaintances are there, and I speak knowingly when I say that many of them are pious men. The Capt is a member in good standing of a Baptist church, and the 1st Lieut. is a Presbyterian minister (Mr. Gailliard). Others that I could name, are equally pious to say the least, but I cannot name them all. In addition to piety, there are in the company, learning, talents and wealth. I need not say I was happy to meet them, yet I must confess that I regret that our country needs their services on the battle-field. May God bless and protect them all is my earnest prayer!

Friday, June 7.

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looking man, and evidently a good officer. His appearance is that of a stern, yet high-toned, and refined gentleman. - Wrote a letter to Lou to day. Hope she is well.

Saturday, June 8.

Felt a little indisposed this morning, but am better now. Rev. Milton Kennedy tells me that he has no hope that his brother can recover. Sad to contemplate! A young man thus early to be called from time to eternity. Hope he will be prepared for the change.

Received an affectionate, but very desponding letter from Lou, and have written one in reply trying to cheer her amid her trials.

Sunday June, 9

“Come and hear, all ye that fear God, and I will declare what he hath done for my soul.” Sixty-sixth Psalm &16th verse. This was the subject of a very interesting sermon, delivered this evening in the Baptist Church, by the Rev. Mr. Taylor, Chaplain of the Brooks Troop, of Greenville S. C. now attached to Hampton’s Legion. The young divine, has talents for great usefulness, as his sermon this evening abundantly proved. Long may he live, to tell what God has done for his soul, and thus cause many to seek the Christian’s “much longed-for-heaven of eternal joys beyond the grave”.

Bro.-in-law j. R. P. Goodlett, called this afternoon to see me and while here closed a letter to his mother. Capt. Lamman, also called on me. May God bless