Journal of John B. Patrick, September 14, 1861-February 14, 1862

Journal of John B. Patrick, September 14, 1861-February 14, 1862

John B. Patrick was a member of The Citadel's Class of 1855. He served as a professor of mathematics at the Arsenal Academy in Columbia from 1859-1865 and as secretary for the Board of Visitors from 1862-1865. During the Civil War, he was lieutenant in charge of the Battalion of State Cadets. His journals span from 1861-1865 and detail his personal life and health, religion, his work at the Arsenal Academy, cadet discipline, and Civil War activities.

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is being held at Springtown church. This is in accordance with a good and long standing custom with that church, to set apart one week in each year, for preaching and other religious exercises. It has been blessed with tokens of Divine favor in days gone by, and will, I trust, receive them again.

Visited a Baptist Bro. this evening - Dr. J. J. McCants - who has recently moved to this place. Would that we had more such men. - Wrote a letter to Lou.

Saturday, Sep. 14.

Called at the Book-store to day and examined some Sunday-school question books with a view of getting some for our school, but found none more suitable than those we have. Wrote a letter to Bro. Charles & and one to T. H. M. The news from the seat of war is rather unfavorable to day.

Sunday Sep. 15.

Bro. Breaker preached to day from 1st Tim 4:8, “but godliness is profitable unto all things, having promise of the life that now is, and of that which is to come.” It was one of his best efforts. He said, and, I think proved very clearly, that “the Creator designed that godliness should be a law of man’s nature.” His second proposition was that “the Creator designed that man should be happy.” From these premises it follows that godliness is profitable unto all things &c. The sermon at night was instructive, which by the way, is an unfailing characteristic of his preaching. I attended the funeral of a little boy this afternoon, at an Episcopal church. The service was read, and I could but think certain passages very inappropriate - such for instance

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as “our deceased brother”. - Finished a letter to Lou.

Monday, Sep. 16.

Received three letters to day; one from Bro-in-law J. R. P. G. now in Hampton’s Legion in Va, one from Rev. W. T. Farrow, and one from Lou. I have answered them all. That from Joel is very comforting. Its turn indicates that he feels his dependence upon an All-wise Being, and that he is trying to serve Him. But this does not surprise me, it only confirms what I previously had reason to believe. May he have grace to enable him to persevere!

Tuesday, Sep. 17

One or more of the cadets, thoughtlessly perhaps, amused himself a little this evening by putting out the lights in garrison. The officer of the guard, not being able to ascertain who was the offender, appealed to me. After satisfying myself how the offence was committed, I made no effort to ascertain who the offender was, but made a few remarks to the corps which I am sure will stop that kind of amusement. There is an art in ruling boys.

Wednesday, Sep. 18

I am looking forward with great pleasure, to the time when I shall commence house-keeping. My arrangements are being completed. Wrote a letter to Lou this afternoon. Attended our usual prayer-meeting but did not enjoy it as much as I usually do, not, however, because the exercise were less interesting, but because of my own fault. Called and conversed with Bro. Breaker for some time after the exercises of the prayer meeting.

Thursday, Sep. 19.

Walked about a great deal this afternoon, on business

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and am now feeling weary, although not in any way disheartened. True I would like much to see times easier than at present, particularly in pecuniary affairs. “Money is the root of all evil.” Received two letters one from Lou & one from Col. R. P. G.

Friday, Sep. 20.

Wrote one letter and rec’d one. News with me is unimportant. I am told that one man here who has sold wood at $5. per cord in former times speaks of raising his price to $10. this winter. He thinks coal cannot be had, and that he can take advantage of the necessities of the people. Alas for poor fallen human nature! What will it not do for money!

Saturday, Sep. 21.

Having walked about a good-deal to day I am feeling very tired, and not only so but I am not pleased with the news concerning the times. Some one, a traitor, has been giving information to our enemies concerning the condition, location and strength of the Confederate forces. - Hope to spend a pleasant Sabbath.

Sunday Sep. 22.

Heard three sermons to day. The two usual times for preaching at our church were employed by Bro. Breaker in his accustomed way. He is always instructive. This afternoon I heard a sermon at the Factory by Bro. Durham. A protracted meeting is now going on there, but the sermon this evening was what is termed a funeral sermon. A little child’s earthly remains were deposited in the grave-yard and the assembly turned away. Thus it must be sooner or later with all us. But what is death to the Christian save the end of anxiety & pain - the beginning of eternal joy.

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Monday, Sep. 23.

I commenced moving into my quarters to day, and would be glad if the trouble of moving and getting fixed were over. I feel too unsettled to attend to collateral reading in my present situation.

Tuesday, Sep. 24.

Have been actively employed all day, and am feeling weary. Received three letters, one from Bro. Charles, now stationed on Cole’s Island, one from my old friend T. H. M., and the other was from Lou. I’m sorry to learn from Bro’s. letter that he has had fever every day since he returned to camp, and that the regiment is suffering from the measles. Who can tell the sufferings to which the poor soldier is subjected!

Wednesday, Sep. 25.

In addition to my academic duties, I have been busily engaged in arranging my furniture preparatory to moving into my quarters on to-morrow. The unusual exercise has had the effect to fatigue me somewhat. At prayer meeting this evening, our pastor told us of an interesting revival now going on at the Factory. A number have joined by letter, and as many have been received for Baptism while others appear to be deeply interested in that greatest of all subject the soul’s salvation. May the good work continue, and spread far and wide!

Thursday, Sep. 26.

It has been a very rainy day, and I have been out in it a great deal. - Lou is with me at home and, indeed, we may say for once that we are at home. We have moved into our quarters and I already feel at home, notwithstanding, we have as yet

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moved in but little furniture. I feel that I shall be happier and more useful, and indeed such is my prayer.

Friday, Sep. 27.

Very stormy to day, - wind but little rain. Heard my recitations as usual and the remainder of the day I have employed in “puttings things to rights.”

Saturday Sep. 28.

Another day has been actively employed, in endeavoring to complete our house keeping arrangements. A few more days, and I hope every thing will be arranged. My colleagues have to day relinquished their commands at this post, preparatory to moving to the other branch of the institution to which they have been transferred. I am, therefore, in command, for a short time - a day of two until Capt. Thomas arrives. I hope he will not be many days away, for boys will get into mischief unless they are kept employed, and one department will not suffice to occupy their time. Have written a letter to Bro. Charles this evening.

Sunday, Sep. 29.

Was prevented from attending S. school this morning by having to attend to the duties of Sup’t. at the Arsenal. Attended church but failed to enjoy the services as much as I usually do, because my mind involuntarily dwelt too much on secular cares. A case of discipline that occurred this morning in which the depravity of human nature was strikingly apparent annoyed me considerably. Dr. Reynolds preached for us in consequence of illness in the pastor’s family. His little boy, it is feared will not recover.

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Monday, Sep. 30.

Discharged my duties as usual & those of Sup’t. in addition. Everything has gone on well. Capt White leaves tomorrow morning to report at the Citadel.

Tuesday, Oct. 1

Cap’t Thomas took charge as Sup’t. here this morning. I went through with my regular duties, and made some purchases of furniture to day, and am now feeling weary.

Wednesday, Oct. 2.

The Sup’t. again left the duties of officer in charge for me to attend to, and I find it very confining. It is too, somewhat fatiguing, thus to have no relaxation from the care & responsibility of the garrison. It is raining to night, and if it were not I suppose I could not attend prayer meeting.

Thursday Oct. 3d

Another day has passed away. It has been one involving of somewhat more than ordinary excitement to me. My duty has required me to arrest a cadet for reprehensible conduct in my recitation room. - The bells rang this afternoon for or in honor of the secession of Missouri. A salute was also fired by the city authorities.

Friday, Oct. 4.

Nothing unusual occurred. I wrote, or rather finished a letter to sister Lizzie, also wrote one to W. T. Farrow. Retire, feeling relieved that I have no recitations on the morrow.

Saturday, Oct. 5.

Made an unsuccessful effort to collect money due the church for pew-rent. Employed the remainder of the day in completing our house keeping arrange

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ments. - This evening, I attended our regular church conference and was glad to see more of the members out than usual. It is, indeed, pleasant to meet the brethren at these meetings, and interchange thoughts and feelings in regard to the welfare of the church. It is to be regretted, however, that the stringency of the times should tend so much to embarrass the pecuniary affairs of the church. But so it is, men are apt to indulge their appetites and desires, even though the cause of truth and religion call on them ever so loudly.

Sunday, Oct. 6

One more Sabbath day is gone, and a pleasant one it has been. The Sabbath school, and morning service were attended as usual. The ordinance of Baptism was administered to five candidates, (all colored) after morning service, and that of the Lord’s supper was celebrated this afternoon. The service closed with the singing of that good old hymn, “Bles’t be the tie that binds” &c. How pleasant thus, to enjoy a foretaste of Heaven, but alas! how few comparatively of mankind feel or know the importance or the comfort of such meetings. Could not attend night service, because of being in charge.

Monday, Oct. 7

A letter from Bro. Charles, says that he has been sick and that a great number of the soldiers there (on Cole’s Island), are sick also. Poor soldiers! they have hard times, particularly on such nights as this when the rain is coming down in torrents. We can never honor them too much for suffering so much and encountering so many dangers

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for the good of their country. May the blessings of the Most High, be vouchsafed to them!

Tuesday, Oct. 8.

In addition to my regular duties, I have written a letter to Bro. Charles. I know that he appreciates a letter from those near to him, and as I can do nothing else to cheer him, I endeavor to write promptly.

Wednesday, Oct. 9.

Our prayer meeting, though not as full as usual, owing to the inclemency of the weather, was nevertheless an interesting one. It was of a social character. Several members made remarks. Among others, I commented or rather offered some suggestions on the duty of Christians.

Thursday, Oct. 10

A letter from Father, brings the cheerful intelligence that the family is well. Although a severe storm has thrown down a great many trees, and injured the crop of cotton, he appears cheerful, and thankful that his prospects are as good as they are.

Friday, Oct. 11.

Wrote two letters to day, one on business, the other to Father. - My sympathies have been enlisted to day in behalf of one of our cadets. His uncle, who had adopted him, died a short time since without a will, and he fears that his prospects for obtaining an education are blasted, unless he can be transferred from the list of Pay to that of State Cadets. I instructed him in regard to the manner of procuring the transfer and promised to aid him all that I can

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in securing it. Experience has taught me how to sympathize with those who have to contend with adverse circumstances.

Saturday, Oct. 12

Having walked a great deal to day, and studied hard this evening. I am now feeling weary and desire repose.

Sunday, Oct. 13

I made the acquaintance of Rev. Mr. Chambliss at S. school this morning, and met an old friend, whom I have not seen in three years. It was Mr. Tindal: his visit to Germany has improved him considerably. He and a young Baptist Bro, S. S. Kirby took tea with me this evening. This, by the way, is the first time that I have ever had a friend to sit with me at my table. I trust that I shall have these two many more times, and that others will do me the pleasure to share my hospitalities, for in nothing do I take more pleasure, than in seeing my friends and making them comfortable.

Attended church this morning and this evening. The day has been a pleasant one to me.

Monday, Oct. 14.

Have been sorely tempted of Satan to day. Or perhaps I might better say, that circumstances connected with the discharge of my duty, as teacher, and with a business transaction, have been unpleasant.

Tuesday, Oct. 15

A very pleasant day to me - the evening particularly so. Bro. Chambliss and Mr. Tindal took tea with me. Their company was particularly pleasant. The chief topic of conversation was Christianity as held & practiced by the

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Catholic church. Bro. T. - is much more liberal in his views than Bro. C. - but not so correct I think.

Wednesday, Oct. 16.

The prayer-meeting was thinly attended again, I am sorry to say, perhaps this was owing to unavoidable circumstances, but it does seem that more interest should be manifested in such exercises as are there held. And yet I must confess, that although present this evening, I did not enjoy the meeting as I would like to have done; but the fault was me - not in the exercises. Wrote a letter to Bro. Charles this evening, in answer to one received of from him on yesterday.

Thursday, Oct. 17.

My regular duties have been performed as usual. One of our cadets, J. W. Clement, who has been honorably discharged left to day. The manner in which he left me, confirmed the good opinion I had previously formed of him.

Friday, Oct. 18.

A long and affectionate letter from sister Lizzie tells me that all are well at home - cheering intelligence this.

Saturday, Oct. 19.

The day has passed away very pleasantly. I have done a good deal of walking about, attending to business, and am now feeling tired. This evening has been spent in a committee meeting, to devise ways & means to raise money to defray the expenses of the church for the next year.

Sunday, Oct. 20.

Another Sabbath with its blessed privileges has passed away. It has been a quiet and a pleasant day to me.

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Monday, Oct. 21.

Life has its cares and trials, as every one can testify. I do not pretend that a teacher's life is more fraught with care than that of other men, and yet it does seem that his kindness often times meets a poor return. But it is only boys and people of narrow mind that fail to appreciate his labor of love.

Tuesday, Oct. 22.

Had the unexpected pleasure to meet Mr. & Mrs. Tindal to day. Mr. T- did not tell me of his intention to bring Mrs. T- down with him, in fact he did not know it then himself. The engagement, although one of long standing was consumated speedily; that is to say, there was not much parade about it. This was sensible. I like quiet unostentatious weddings.

Wednesday, Oct. 23.

It is, indeed, a great pleasure to attend the prayer meeting once a week. Then we, commune, as it were, with the Father in Heaven, and anticipate to some small degree the joys of the celestial world. How thankful we ought to be, that we are thus enabled to relieve our minds of the cares and anxieties of life. A letter from Bro. Charles, dated 19th inst. says that out of about 850 men, on the island, only about 250 are able to do duty. He adds that it is not pleasant to walk post in the rain and wading water. At the time of writing, he thought he was taking measles. If so I hope his attack will be a mild one. - Frost will soon come and then we trust there will be less sickness in camps.

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Thursday, Oct. 24.

My usual duties have been performed. I received my commission as First Lieutenant to day bearing the date 1st Oct.

Friday, Oct. 25.

The day has passed away pleasantly. This afternoon was spent in going round to members of the Baptist congregation, to ascertain how much they will be willing to give for the support of the gospel, during the next year. In view of the hard times, the success I met with was is encouraging.

Saturday, Oct. 26.

As usual on Saturdays, I have walked about a good deal to day. My business was the same as that that called me out yesterday afternoon. Bro. Breaker called to see me this afternoon. How pleasant it is to have friends call to see me at my own house! I retire feeling very much fatigued.

Sunday, Oct. 27.

What a blessed privilege it is, to rest, one day out of seven, from our secular cares. The services of the sanctuary were indeed pleasant to day. Bro. B's text this morning, compared the Christian life to walking, the text this evening compared it to a race. Both were good sermons.

I went this afternoon, to the colored S. school of the Presbyterian Church. It is conducted by Mr. Ladsden in a most excellent manner, and with the blessing of God, must result in great good.

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I think I shall try to introduce, to some extent, his plan of instruction and government in to our S. school.

Monday, Oct. 28.

Received a supply of provisions from home to day, - a great treat indeed to me, it is, both for its pecuniary worth, and for its having come from home. Wrote to my parents thanking them for the kind remembrance.

Tuesday, Oct. 29.

The day with its duties and trials, has passed, and it is with feelings of regret, that I have learned seen another lesson instance of failure on the part of a cadet to appreciate kindness in the teacher, I make my evening record. But human nature, at best, is weak, and boys must, therefore, be expected to err.

Wednesday, Oct. 30.

How little we appreciate our privileges as Christians. The prayer meetings are, cases, in life's moral desert, but alas! few seem to enjoy them. The meeting this evening was a pleasant one to me.

Thursday, Oct. 31.

The day passed away very quietly. I went round and paid up some of the accounts that I made recently. Hope soon to pay up all I owe, and then to proceed, as formerly, on the cash system.

Friday, Nov. 1

A very rainy day, accompanied by wind. Poor soldiers! They fare badly in such weather as this. They cannot be too much honored for their toils and sacrifices in the cause of liberty.

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Saturday - November 2nd

Went out to day, in command of our corps, and united with the citizen soldiers to guard the prisoners (sent on here from Richmond) from the depot to the jail. There were about one hundred and fifty of them, two of whom were little boys. We "formed square," the prisoners were marched within, and thus surrounding them we conducted them to the quarters they now occupy. An immense crowd of persons assembled to see them. Old & young of both sexes, white and colored, appeared alike anxious to see the men who were captured in their onward march to desolate our homes and firesides. A few, I regret to say seemed disposed to use taunting expressions in their hearing. They are our enemies, but they have surrendered, and it is due to one's self-esteem not to reproach them. It certainly does not evince a noble and courageous spirit to wound the feelings of a man, when he is unarmed, and surrounded by soldiers, armed with bayonets and loaded muskets.

Sunday, Nov. 3.

Attended S. school and church in the morning as usual, but as I am in charge I did not go out this evening. Read one of Spurgeon's Sermons.

Monday Nov. 4.

Performed my ordinary routine of duty. A letter from Bro. Charles tells me that he has had measles, in consequence of which, he has been furloughed until his health is restored. Hope he will pay me a visit before his return to camps.

Tuesday, Nov. 5.

Wrote a letter to Bro. Charles to day, and also a note to Col. R. P. G. Visited Capt. Thomas this evening.

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Wednesday, Nov. 6.

After hearing my recitations to day, I availed myself of the opportunity to call on some of my friends, who are members of the Legislature, now assembled to elect electors to vote for President of the C. S. It is refreshing to meet one's friends after a long absence.

Attended the prayer meeting this evening, and enjoyed it. Would that more persons took delight in its profitable exercises.

Thursday, Nov. 7.

The day has been spent pleasantly. Three letters, one from home, one from Uncle W. L. P., and one from Col. R. P. G. have been received. These enhanced my pleasure. Mr. & Mrs. Tindal took tea with us, a circumstance that always gladdens the heart of a man of my disposition.

But still I am not as cheerful now as I would like to be. A report has reached here, to the effect that the enemy have landed, or rather have taken possession of Port-Royal Harbor. The details I know not, but fear that they are unfavorable in a high degree. There is, however, a faint hope, nay a confidence in the Providence of God, that we will be enabled to drive them off our soil and that speedily.

Friday, Nov. 8.

The news from Port-Royal is unfavorable. It is said that the enemy has landed, that our batteries have been silenced, and that the town of Beaufort has been burned. This last act was done by the citizens themselves, rather than let it fall into the hands of the invaders. A noble example this of self-sacrifice

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for the good of the country. May God grant that the invaders may soon be driven off our soil! I do not feel like writing more. The present excited state of my mind leads rather to thoughtfulness silence and meditation than to writing or conversation.

Saturday, Nov. 9.

This has been a day of intense excitement. Forty two of our cadets, all we have except eight, left to day under the command of Capt. Thomas to engage in active service. They left, on the evening train for Charleston in fine spirit. I addressed them in a few parting words, commending them to the care of "Him who doeth all things well." I was glad to see that they appreciated my remarks, and seemed to feel the responsibility of the undertaking. May the God of battles protect and defend them and return them all to us again!

I am left here, in accordance with orders from Head Quarters, in command of the guard at this fort for the protection of the public property committed to our charge. I asked Cap’t Thomas to remain, and let me lead the corps into service, but he said that the nature of his orders was such that he could not feel it his duty to do so. "He could not consent to keep himself out of danger and send a junior officer into it." As a military man, I acknowledge his right to decide under the circumstances, and of course yield to its exercise. My duties here, are of a responsible nature. I have just received a dispatch from the Chair

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man of the Board of Ordnance, who is in Charleston telling me to "send him all the arms in my possession immediately," and also to make preparations to receive forty thousand pounds of powder which he will ship by R. Road on to-morrow.

Sunday Nov. 10

Was up all of last night, having arms packed up. This morning before day went to the depot for the purpose of having arms forwarded to Charleston. Next I had to make preparations for storing away the powder spoken of yesterday. I consulted the Gov. and received orders to have a room in the new State House fitted up at once. I have had it done. Have not attended church to day, indeed the day had no appearance resemblance to the Sabbath so far as I have observed, except perhaps, the ringing of the church bells this morning.

Monday, Nov. 11.

Went to the depot this morning, received the powder and have had it stored away. Maj. Stevens dined with me to day. He is here for the purpose of getting the Gov's authority to raise a command, he is to have a commission as Col.

Tuesday Nov. 12.

To-day, like yesterday was spent in receiving and issuing arms. A number of official letters have been received and answered.

Wednesday, Nov. 13.

To-day's duties very much like those of yesterday. I should have stated that I retired last night with a load of care resting on my mind. In accord

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ance with orders from the Gov. I had sentinels posted on the green to guard the magazines, and the orders I had to give them were strict. Indeed I felt fearful that some man, an innocent one perhaps, might be shot before the morning. - To-night in accordance with Gov's orders, I have a guard that has been detailed from the Militia. A letter from Capt Thomas to-day, informs me that he will have to return soon, and tells me to hold myself in readiness to take his place at any time. I will get ready.

Thursday, Nov. 14.

I have been making arrangements to go to the coast to day. I am not certain whether he desires me to go for a short time only, or whether he intends that I shall relieve him permanently, and hence am at a loss whether to make my arrangements for a long or a short stay. Two old friends, Mr. Tindal & Mr. Graham, called on me to day. Both of them are getting ready for "the wars." A letter from Bro. Charles tells me that the Militia of that section have been ordered out, and that he left yesterday to return to his Reg't. He seems to be in fine spirits for which I am thankful. - I am not feeling so well this evening. I have caught cold. The warm weather we are having, and the irregular life that I have been leading doubtless is the cause of it. For several days past I have neither slept or ate regularly.

Friday

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enced lately. I have had fewer calls than usual. Regret, however, that I was prevented from attending church to-day, for I feel that all should engage in public acknowledgements such as this day was designedly set apart to make.

Saturday, Nov. 16.

Having been engaged in making arrangements for leaving home and going into service. A few little bills have been paid off - preparations are being made for closing up the house, and sending Lou to Greenville. Her brother James is now here, for the purpose of accompanying her home. I am feeling perfectly satisfied to go, but do not like the idea of the Battalion of State Cadets losing its separate organization. The existing arrangement, may possibly result in placing an officer of this Academy under a militia officer of similar rank. But I hold that this is not a time to create disturbances about matters of that kind.

Sunday, Nov. 17.

Attended S. school & Church this morning. It is of all earthly pleasures, the greatest, to be permitted to spend Sabbath in the exercises of the S. school & Sanctuary. My duties at the Academy, forbid that I should enjoy spend this evening at church.

Monday, Nov. 18.

This day has been one of feverish anxiety to me. Expecting to start for the coast on to-morrow morning, I have made my arrangements accordingly. I even have my trunk ready packed, to start, but as a letter from the Chairman of the Board is expected, which will

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contain something of importance to the officers of this Academy, I have not yet been able to get my consent to go before another day passes. I wish I had the desired information. I could then proceed at once to act.

Tuesday, Nov. 19.

The desired letter came this afternoon. The Chairman of the Board has decided that I must remain here for the present. He says that he is going to Charleston on the 17th inst. on business relative to the Battalion of Cadets, from which I infer that he will order them back. My friend, Mr. D. C. Anderson, who came yesterday is still with me. He is fitting himself out for service, and waiting for the arrival of his Bro. in-law - Mr. Tindal.

Wednesday, Nov. 20.

The Cadets have been ordered back. I shall not therefore go into service at present. Bro. Breaker called to see me this afternoon, and, as is usual, his visit proved agreeable.

Bro.-in-law, James Y. Goodlett, left this morning for home.

Thursday, Nov. 21.

My friends, Messrs Anderson & Tindal, dined with me to-day. Both of them are going into service. The former is particularly cheerful and enthusiastic on the subject. Mr. Anderson leaves for home this evening.

Friday, Nov. 22.

The Cadets returned this morning, under command of Lieut Armstrong. I dined with Capt. T-

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our Sup’t. in company with Lieut A. This morning was the first time it has been my pleasure to meet him, (Lieut A.). I find him a quiet, unassuming, and thinking man. - Learn with regret that there is a spirit of disaffection among the cadets of the Citadel Academy.

It is reported that a fight is going on at Pensacola.

Saturday, Nov. 23.

Have been closely engaged most of the day in making arrangements for the examination, which is to begin on Tuesday next. - There has been nothing further from Pensacola of a reliable character, save that they were fighting there yesterday. It is said that a battle is now going on at Manassas. Alas! for man, poor weak sinful man, that he will act thus. Men should live together in peace.

Sunday Nov. 24.

Attended Sunday school this morning, as usual. After its exercises were closed I attended a pleasant meeting of the church, held for the special purpose of receiving two candidates for admittance to membership. After the regular morning service, the ordinance of baptism was administered. Heard a good sermon this evening.

Monday Nov. 25.

Have spent the day in making arrangements for the examination. This after-noon late, I went down and bade Bro. Walker good bye. He leaves for the coast on tomorrow.

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Hope to meet him again. He is a good and useful man and his loss would be severely felt.

Tuesday, Nov. 26th

The Board of Visitors came up to day to attend the examination as was expected. After inspection I drilled the corps for their benefit, or rather for them to judge of the discipline & drill for themselves. The corps did well - they were pleased. This done, the examination commenced in mathematics and French - We took a lunch at Capt Thomas'.

Wednesday, Nov. 27.

The examination was continued from 9. A.M. till 2 P.M. when the Board repaired to my quarters to take lunch by my invitation. They seemed to enjoy it very much to my gratification. - I am this evening, as on evenings previous, feeling weary.

Thursday, Nov. 28

The examination closed to day. I feel relieved, for I have been closely engaged for several days. The examination in mathematics was gratifying - that in English not so satisfactory although not bad. After taking lunch at Cap’t Thomas' the Board left . - Through the suggestion of Capt Thomas, the Board have requested me, to go down on tomorrow and act as Secretary for them. I am glad of this, as it may be increase my means of doing good.

Friday, Nov. 29.

Have spent the day in writing for the Board - get home late and am not in a situation to sleep well. My nervous system is too much excited.

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Saturday, Nov. 30.

Wrote for the Board again to-day - was formally and unanimously elected Secretary of the Board of Visitors. Work till one o'clock, hoping to get through so that I may enjoy a quiet Sabbath, but do not succeed. I retire weary.

Sunday, Dec. 1.

I regret that I have not been able to attend the S. school or the Sanctuary to day. It has been necessary for me to write all day in order to complete a certain portion of the work by to-morrow morning 10 o’clock.

Monday, Dec. 2.

Learned, this morning, with regret, that I will be denied the pleasure of visiting my parents this vacation. Capt. Thomas has been ordered to Charleston, to aid in fortifying the city, and I shall have to remain here to take charge of the Academy. Wrote a letter to Father giving the reason of my detention here.

Tuesday, Dec. 3d

Was engaged with in duties connected with the Academy and & Arsenal. Maj. White called to see me for a short time to-day. He does not look so well as when I last saw him.

Wednesday Dec. 4

I have been a little worried with my duties. All does not go on exactly as I desire. I do not get to attend church prayer meeting this evening. My duties here will not let me go out at night.

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Thursday, Dec. 5.

This has been a day of trial. It has been necessary for me to resort to rigid measures in order to preserve discipline. But all is aright now – those who erred have been made to see and feel their error, and will not, I hope, be guilty of such errors again. Such are the trials of one who has to rule boys, and then alas! he rarely receives any reward from men for his pains. But this matter of small import to a sincere & good man.

Friday, Dec. 6.

The effects of yesterday’s discipline are apparent. It has produced a change for the better.

Saturday, Dec. 7.

The day has had its duties and its trials too to some extent, but all is well at its close except I am feeling weary and care worn. Sister Lizzie & Mother-in-law and her two little sons are with us now – just arrived to day. All are well at both of our homes. – I learn that Rev. Mr. Sanders, the minister who baptized me is now the Capt of a company just arrived at the camp of instruction near this place. A deacon of the church of which Mr. Sanders is pastor is the 1st Lieut of the company.

Sunday, Dec. 8.

My duties here would not permit me to attend S. school, though I went to church in the forenoon. I could not attend in the evening because there was no one, in whom I had confidence, to leave in charge of the garrison. My old acquaintance

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and friends and fellow graduate Mr. Harper called on me this evening.

Monday, Dec. 9.

Have felt unwell nearly all day, but am better now. Capt Thomas has returned, and I shall have less care on my mind. Mr. Harper dined with me to day. He is a quiet unassuming man, perhaps too much so to succeed well in a world like this when self esteem is so essential a requisite.

Tuesday Dec. 10

Have spent the day quietly – free from care and anxiety, or at least, as much so as the nature of the times will permit. If I could be thus free for a few weeks or months, my health would be invigorated. But present duties must be performed, however much our inclinations may lead to pleasure or ease.

Wednesday, Dec. 11.

After a quiet day, I attended prayer meeting. But few were out – owing perhaps to the threatening state of the weather.

Thursday, Dec. 12.

There is great excitement in Columbia this evening – owing to the sad intelligence that Charleston is on fire. Various reports are current as regards the extent of the damage but all agree that it is very great. It seems that similar disasters happen in different parts of the world about the same time. We read at one period of conflagration after conflagration, at another of tornado after tornado, and again

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at another of ship-wreck after ship-wreck. And then again all seems quiet, and we read of great religious interests in different localities springing up, as it were, simultaneously and claiming the attention of men. Taking all these facts together, I am inclined to the belief that they constitute a part of God’s plan in controlling the world, and in accomplishing his own glorious purposes. In this I do not charge God with being the author of evil as some have intimated, He but permits these calamities to come upon us, and controls them for good. All blessings emanate from Him.

Friday, Dec. 13.

Went to the depot this morning – saw Mother-in-law & the little boys off home. Have been busy to day in preparing to visit my parents.

Saturday, Dec. 14.

Left Columbia this morning – I’m now at home with my parents. I feel rejoiced to find them in such good health. They are happy to have us at home, and are particularly gratified at being permitted to see their little grand-daughter. I must not forget to state that I am most favorably impressed with the appearance of my little nephew, Benjamin Beauregard Kearse. I predict that, if he is blest with an opportunity, he will make a useful man.

Sunday, Dec. 15.

Spent the day quietly. There being no preaching any where near us we did not leave home.

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Monday, Dec. 16.

Went out to Midway to day and there met a number of old friends all of whom seemed glad to meet me. It is pleasant thus to meet the friends and acquaintances of earlier days.

Tuesday, Dec. 17.

Stayed at home all day, except that Lou & I rode out a little way this morning. The weather is indeed, pleasant.

Wednesday, Dec. 18.

Went out to shoot some ducks this evening in company with Father. We did not kill any, though each of us shot at some at a considerable distance.

Thursday, Dec. 19.

Lou and I rode over to Uncle William Patrick’s this afternoon – Mrs. Whetstone and family called this morning talked chiefly about the war. All of us have relatives and friends in the army, and can easily sympathize with each other.

Friday Dec. 20.

Father and I went hunting ducks again this evening, but did not get a shot. We saw some too far off to shoot. – When we will hunt together again is uncertain, perhaps never. I expect to-morrow, to return home, and a year at least will elapse before I can return and have an opportunity to indulge in such pastime. But happily we cannot read the future.

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Saturday, Dec. 21.

Left the home of my childhood this morning for my home in Columbia. The day was pleasant, and we came on without any interruption. On arriving here I went out to purchase a sack of salt for Father. To my surprise, it was difficult to find, and when I found it I had to pay the exorbitant price of sixteen dollars a sack. How men can remain quietly at home, attending to their own business and thus extort from the families of those who are serving their country. I should be at a loss to imagine were it not that I know human nature is utterly depraved and weak.

Sunday, Dec. 22.

Another Sabbath has come and gone. It has been a cold and disagreeable day out of doors. – Went to Sunday school this morning, the first time that I have enjoyed this privilege for several weeks. I told the scholars that I had been absent because I felt that my duties there could be performed by others while my duties elsewhere could be performed by me alone and could not be postponed, but that they should not allow the absence of the Sup’t to cause them to stay at home, - their duty being manifestly to attend the school. – From school – went to church. This afternoon and evening have been spent at home – watching over and ministering to the wants of our little girl, who has been suffering from an attack of sickness – perhaps I am thankful that she is now apparently free from pain. Hope she will soon be well again.

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Monday, Dec. 23.

Have been busily engaged all day in having work done about the Academy, and in making preparations for another year. Our little girl is better this evening, for which I am thankful.

Tuesday, Dec. 24.

To-day, like yesterday, has been spent in having preparations made for the 1st of January.

Wednesday, Dec. 25.

Christmas day this is, but to me it appears more like Sunday than any other day in the week. This I presume, is because I have not been so busily engaged as I am sometimes. It is, too, a beautiful and quiet day, well calculated to remind one of the glorious event that this it day commemorates.

Thursday, Dec. 26

Have been busy all day, and am now feeling weary. - It is worthy of record, that a man in this city, asked me, for a sack salt of the enormous sum of twenty five dollars. I felt indignant, that a man should ask such an exorbitant price for one of the necessaries of life, and that too, in times like these, when men ought to do all in their power to prevent want and suffering. But such is human nature.

Friday, Dec. 27.

The Militia were out to day in order that a call might be made, or rather in obedience to a call for volunteers. Perhaps I had better

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say that they were assembled in order to see how many of them would volunteer. It is feared that we will be compelled to draft men for service. For the honor of the State I hope such will not be the case.

Saturday, Dec. 28

I am feeling anxious this evening, about our Sea-coast and those who are there to defend it. This morning’s paper informed me that the enemy were approaching Charleston, and that our batteries on Cole’s Island had exchanged a few shots with a gun boat on Thursday last. I think there is no doubt, but that a fight has taken place before this. Hope that brother and all others who are there are well and safe. Hoping that we shall soon have more cheering news, I now seek repose.

Sunday, Dec. 29.

After attending Sunday school this morning I went to church and there heard a good sermon from Rev. Mr. Curtis L L.D. of Limestone Springs. “To be spiritually minded is life and peace” was his subject. This evening I heard Rev. Dr. Furman of Furman University. “If any man be in Christ, he is a new creature” was his text, and well did he treat it. Indeed both the sermons were good. It is worthy of remark that both of these divines are members of the State Convention now in session here.

Monday, Dec. 30.

This day has been spent chiefly, in endeavoring to collect pew rent, in order to pay our pastor’s salary.

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Tuesday, Dec. 31.

Rev. J. G. Landrum and J. C. Furman D. D. dined with us to day. The first time, - but I hope it will not be the last – that aged divines have thus honored me. Mr. John W. Jamison, recently elected Asst. Prof. at the Arsenal is with us to night. He will board with us for a time, until he can arrange for rooming in his own quarters.

And now another year draws to a close. When the morning light again dawns, we will say it is 1862. May I be enabled to live more uprightly henceforth than I have hitherto.

Wednesday, Jan. 1. 1862.

This is New-Year’s day, and a busy one it has been for me. I have been examining pupils, applying for admission into the Academy, and making other arrangements for the duties of the session. I am now very much fatigued.

Thursday, Jan. 2.

Yesterday’s record would be equally true of to day.

Friday, Jan. 3.

I met the class to day – issued books – assigned recitations, and gave some general hints as to what will be expected of them in the recitation room. Also arranged the squads for drill, and drilled them between the hours of 12 & 1 and again from 4 to 5.

Saturday Jan. 4.

I am feeling weary this evening, and yet I can see but little that I have done to day. – I am a little more pleased with the news from the seat of war today

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than I was a day or two ago. I am inclined to think that the Lincoln government will yet provoke a war with England, notwithstanding their endeavor to remain at peace. I see, however, no grounds for expecting peace very soon.

Sunday, Jan. 5.

This has been a wet, disagreeable day. There was, consequently no S. school at our church. Dr. Furman preached a fine sermon from the text, “Lord be merciful to me a sinner.” I went out this afternoon to attend the communion services, but it was postponed in consequence of the weather. Only a few persons attended. The day has been on the whole, a pleasant one. I have heard a good sermon, to and have had the pleasure to have the company of a friend to dine with me and one to take tea with me.

Monday, Jan. 6.

Have busily engaged all-day – hearing recitations and drilling. Nothing unpleasant has occurred.

Tuesday, Jan. 7.

Busy as I was yesterday. Two friends, Capt’s. Hoke and Goodlett – the latter a relative of my wife dined with us to day – It is pleasant thus to have friends call on me. A letter from Bro. Charley to day tells me that he has again been sick. He is somewhat despondent. I sympathize with deeply, and have written him a long letter. Hope he will soon be well again.

Wednesday, Jan. 8.

Has been a very cold and unpleasant day. Our soldiers who are exposed to it, doubtless suffer greatly.

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I wish I knew how Bro. Charles’ health is this evening. Hope he is well. He is now just twenty years old. It is the desire of all good men, that when his birthday again returns, we will have peace and consequently no need for so many soldiers.

A few of us met at the church this evening, but there were no exercises, in consequence of the cold and thin attendance.

Thursday, Jan. 9.

Went through with my regular routine of duties.

Friday, Jan. 10.

Being somewhat at leisure this evening, I visited a friend and spent a pleasant hour in conversation. It is pleasant thus to spend an hour after long, and close application to duty.

Saturday, Jan. 11.

To day has been agreeably spent. I went out this morning to collect money, due the church for pew rent, and was gratified to meet with better success than usual. Would that all could and would be prompt in paying the pastor. “The laborer is worthy of his hire,” we are told, and in these hard times he needs it.

Sunday, Jan. 12.

A pleasant day, indeed, has this been. First to S. school, then to church when I heard a good sermon on the subject of Peter’s denial of the Saviour. This afternoon the communion services, postponed from last Sunday were observed. Dr. Reynolds in his usual happy style addressed us and was followed with appropriate remarks by Bro. Breaker. This evening I heard

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Bro. Phelps, formerly pastor of a church at Society Hill. His sermon was on the final judgement, and was a very good one. Indeed, it has been some time since I heard a sermon that pleased me more. It led me to contemplate the purity of God’s character, and the felicities that await the righteous when all the toils and sufferings and uncertainties of this life have passed away. Would that many others could have heard it. Bro. Charles would be benefitted by such a discourse in his present frame of mind. I feel that I must write him about it.

Monday, Jan. 13.

This has been a busy day, as usual with me. Nothing new has reached us except that there is some prospect of a financial panic at the North.

Tuesday, Jan. 14.

A very damp day – we had no drill.

Wednesday, Jan. 15.

Like yesterday, to day has been cold and damp. Drill was again dispensed with. I pity our brave soldiers who are in camps in weather like this.

Thursday, Jan. 16.

I am feeling anxious about father’s health. A letter from him this evening tells me that he has been sick and that he is still unwell though he is out. I hope he will not take a relapse.

Friday, Jan. 17.

Wrote a letter to father to day. I wish I knew now how he is this evening. I will hope that he is convalescent.

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Saturday, Jan. 18.

And now another week is gone. I hope to morrow will be a good day & that I may be permitted to enjoy its privileges.

Sunday, Jan. 19.

An agreeable day this has been to me. The weather has not been as fine as it sometimes is, it is true, but that has not hindered me from enjoying the privileges of the Sanctuary. Heard a plain practical sermon this morning from Bro. Jones pastor of a church in Hendersonville, N.C. Had him & Bro. Phelps to dine with me. Heard an address this evening from by the Rev. Mr. Dickinson of Va. general agent of colportage for the Army. He made a strong appeal in behalf of our brave and self-sacrificing soldiers.

Monday, Jan. 20.

A letter from home brings me the cheering news that all are well. May God continue to grant to them the blessings of health!

Tuesday, Jan. 21.

I am informed that a telegram received here says that a fleet is off Charleston, but I feel that there is no need of apprehension about it. – A letter from Bro. Charles brings me the cheerful intelligence that he is in good health.

Wednesday, Jan. 22.

I am feeling some uneasiness about a hoarseness that has annoyed me for some time. My throat is a little sore this evening, arising perhaps from the inclement weather

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and from having to talk so much in teaching and drilling. A letter received this evening from Mr. Thos. Hall, principal the Anderson Military and Classical Academy, reminds me a days gone by. I should like much to meet him. His letter evinces sincere friendship for me.

Thursday, Jan. 23.

It has been a very damp and unpleasant day. I am informed that our forces have been defeated at Bowling Green, and that Gen. Zollicoffer has been killed. I fear that our defeat is a great one.

Friday, Jan. 24.

Another very disagreeable day. My usual duties have been performed.

Saturday, Jan. 25.

Had some young people to take tea with us this evening. The evening passed away pleasantly. It is a pleasure to contribute in any way to the happiness of others.

Sunday, Jan. 26.

Enjoyed the privileges of the Sabbath as usual. The class that I have organized among the Cadets assembled this afternoon, and I introduced Mr. Gouger to them. He is a member of the Theological Seminary here and I hope will be instrumental in accomplishing good here. They He proposes to begin to study the “Acts of the Apostles,” and assigned the 1st chap. as the lesson for next Sunday. – I would have taught the class myself, but for the belief that more good could be accomplished by one that does

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not have so much to do with the cadets. I know too that I can turn the exercises of the Sabbath mornings that I meet them to good account, by lecturing on some portion of the Scriptures.

Monday, Jan. 27.

Rev. Mr. Breaker paid me a call to day, but I was out on drill and did not see him. I should have been glad to meet him.

Tuesday, Jan. 28.

The usual routine of drill and recitations has been performed.

Wednesday, Jan. 29.

Another day has gone. My regular duties have been discharged. This evening I attended prayer meeting – the first we have had for several weeks or rather for two or three weeks, on account of the disagreeable weather that we had.

Thursday, Jan. 30

I had made it convenient this evening, to say to some of the cadets, that they should study more. One young man, I have learned is a member of a Baptist church. I took occasion to say to him, that I am familiar with the trials that must beset him among so many young and thoughtless persons as we have here and that he should endeavor to be faithful in the discharge of every duty, - that a straightforward and consistent course would not only be right, but would claim the respect of all his associates.

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Friday, Jan. 31.

A very rainy day this has been. I feel for our soldiers, who are exposed to the weather on such days as this. I understand that a telegram has been received saying, that about forty-vessels of the Burnsides fleet are supposed to be lost. If so it is to my mind a conclusive evidence that Providence is against the enemy and for us. I would not presume to interpret the acts of Providence, and yet I think that I shall not err in this coming to the conclusion, after the adverse fortunes of this fleet together with a similar experience of that, that landed at Port-Royal.

Saturday, Feb. 1

Another damp day. I have spent it in going round and settling up the accounts that were against me, and in inquiring the terms of the schools here, with a view of selecting one for my sister to attend.

This evening was the time for our regular church conference. But few were out. It is to be regretted that so little attention be given to so important a subject.

Sunday, Feb. 2.

Attended S. school and church to day as usual. Heard a very good sermon, preached by Bro. Phelps. His object was to show that this life is a state of probation. His reasoning was clear and forcible. Never have I heard a man advance views on any subject, more in accordance with my own. than did he He dined with me, and during his stay we conversed

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freely on the trials and duties of the Christian. Am in charge, (and moreover it is raining so that I think there will be no service this evening). I therefore do not go out.

Monday, Feb. 3d

A damp, unpleasant day - rain is falling now and I am led to think of our brave soldiers who are now “walking post,” or it may be trying to sleep on the damp ground without any covering save the Canopy of Heaven.

Tuesday, Feb. 4.

To day is fair and more pleasant. I am as usual engaged in teaching and drilling.

Wednesday, Feb. 5.

Did not attend prayer meeting this evening, as I would like to have done in consequence of being in charge of the garrison. Nothing new in the way of news so far as I have heard.

Thursday, Feb. 6.

Rain prevented us from drilling to day, and I availed myself of the opportunity to go out in the city and attend to some business. It is raining still. Our soldiers must indeed suffer.

Friday, Feb. 7.

It is raining again this evening, though at one time this morning there was a prospect of our having fair weather. - I have spent this afternoon in looking over a lot of books and selecting such as I wish to purchase. Fear that I shall not be able to purchase them as I desire.

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Saturday, Feb. 8.

It is raining again this evening. - News of a fight at Roanoke Island has reached us to day. It is also reported that France has demanded the raising of the blockade & the removal of the stern fleet from Charleston. This latter, however, I do not believe.

Sunday, Feb. 9.

The attendance at S. school and church was small this morning in consequence of the inclemency of the weather. Brethren Phelps & Jones took tea with us this evening. A very pleasant treat to me, it was to have them. Their conversation was such as suits their calling, and is appropriate on the Sabbath.

Monday, Feb. 10

Intelligence of the defeat of our arms, and the capture of a great many of our men (near three thousand) has reached us this evening. This, I must confess, has depressed my feelings greatly. I have an abiding faith that we will ultimately succeed, but fear that there is a great deal of trouble and suffering in store for us before we are permitted to enjoy the blessings of peace.

Tuesday, Feb. 11.

The news from Roanoke Island N.C. is still discouraging, but that from the West is more agreeable. It is said that a fight has occurred taken place at Fort Donelson, and that the enemy was repulsed. I hope it is true. We cannot expect to be victorious always, yet we have been defeated so often here of late that I feel that we would not exult too much over a victory now. I hope we are sufficiently humbled to

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endure a victory in a becoming spirit.

A lady from Charleston, Mrs. F. - has come up to visit her son - a cadet - who is sick, and is now with us. I took her to my home in order that she might be near her son, and not with a view of receiving any reward, other than arises from having obliged a lady who is interested for her son.

Wednesday, Feb.12.

A very pleasant day this has been. No good news has been received yet so far as I know. Hope the day is not far distant when peace will be declared yet I have no particular reasons upon which to base it.

Thursday, Feb. 13.

My usual duties have been performed. In addition, I have answered a letter from a friend of one of the cadets, who desires to be to transferred from the Pay to the State list. I have directed him what course to pursue, and offered to aid him so far as I can in securing his transfer. The young man, I am pleased to know, appreciates the kindness I showed in former days. Kindness has its reward.

Friday Feb. 14.

There is no cheerings news yet, so far as I have heard, from the seat of war. Some of our people are very imprudent. Newspapers, for example, are publishing to the world where our weak points are. This, to me, is a matter that should be prohibited by law, if men have not common sense enough to know what is proper to be kept secret.